7.22.98

    Well, I'm back to the daily grind. The 405. The boredom. The nothingness. I have tried calling people at SOMA and they have tried calling me and we have yet to connect. I assume that they aren't interested. In order to have me on board they would need to carve out a special niche and that is not necessarily the wisest thing to do. Plus, if they are wanting somebody on the web development side of things then I would have some difficulty there. My philosophy on web design differs widely from what they are already doing. I don't know if I can change my way of thinking to theirs or if I want to take on the task of changing theirs to mine. Perhaps it is not the best fit. I'm okay with that. It would've still been cool.

    Last night I went clothes shopping and actually found some outfits to buy. It has taken about a month for me to buy clothes. Shopping is not something I am fond of. Right now I am pretty irritated at my body. It will not behave. I know that it is just age and probably has something to do with my Pills. Nevertheless, I have accepted my body right now but, of course, your major producers of clothing have not. Do you watch Buffy, The Vampire Slayer? It's a pretty good show. However, I've noticed that every place selling clothes looks like Buffy's closet. I cannot wear spaghetti straps and have not the desire! Frankly, The Girls are too big to go without an over-the-shoulder-boulder-holder which just doesn't go with this waif look. I'm getting really sick of it. Really, really sick.

    I still have to find shoes to buy. I might be the only female who hates shoe shopping. It was a stressful, life-altering experience when I finally bought the black shoes that I have now worn to death. The thing is that I'm very picky and I don't like to spend a lot of money on things which wear out so fast. I spent a lot of money for some sandals to wear at my graduation day last year. They're Nine West shoes. I reasoned that the cost was a significant factor in them being long-lasting. They are falling apart at the heel and I've barely worn them.

    Why do women's shoes have to be so damn uncomfortable, anyway? I like the look of some of the clunky, strappy shoes that I see in the store but there's no way in hell I could wear them for more than an hour. I once asked T. if he found men's dress shoes to be terribly uncomfortable and he said they were usually fine. I am not surprised.

    I have to buy shoes, though. And, as soon as I do I have to burn the ones that I have to keep me from wearing them. They are uncomfortable and they stink. This Friday I'm off to Portland for my wedding shower and bachelorette party. It's going to be a blast. And, now that I have an outfit to wear out I just need the shoes. It's really crucial to me that I feel like I look okay for this event.

    I'm really happy about going up to visit Portland. I'll get in on Friday night and we're heading straight over to a McMenamin's pub for good micro-brew and grub. My favorite beer from them is the Rubinator, which is actually a mix of their Ruby Ale and their Terminator Stout. Mmmmmm...I'm salivating already. After living in Oregon and Portland for awhile one can get a little tired of McMenamins but, as they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder.

    I'm currently reading Douglas Adams' books. There was a large tome with all of his works relating to The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy in the bargain bin at Barnes & Noble so I figured better late than never. I finished Hitchhiker's and now I'm on The Restaurant at the End of the Universe. They are really funny and I'd excerpt some stuff but since this is only new to me I think it might bore you.

    I just bought Geek Love as I have heard enough about it over the last year to check it out. It's just the right size for a long flight. I'll keep notes over the weekend and let you know all about my wild nights of debauchery and chicanery. Stay tuned.