4.19.99

    I'm achey. I can't tell if it's an illness coming on (please, no) or if it's due to my workout last Friday. We're trying to find a good gym to join. Right now we have to choose between Nautillus and 24-Hour Fitness. These aren't stellar choices, in my opinion, but they are what is closest. We have a pass through this Thursday for 24-Hour and we've been taking the "kickboxing" classes. It's all shadow-boxing, no heavy-bags. I miss the bags. There's something animalistically enjoyable about smacking into something really hard. I think that the shadow stuff is more difficult, though, because you really have to be aware of your balance. The class is much more aerobic-centered but still fun.

    T. and I haven't been sleeping very well lately. For me, I think it's a combination of getting used to the new place and new sounds. Our bedroom is a lot bigger than our last one and I think I feel kind of exposed with all this air around me. I guess I got used to that cozy, claustrophobic feeling. At least I haven't sleepwalked. When I was growing up I used to sleepwalk within the first week of moving into a new house. Once I woke up in my closet. Another time I woke up leaning against the second floor railing, which is pretty scary because if I had tipped over it I would've fallen to the tile on the ground floor. I think I broke that habit when I went off to college. My unconscious self was probably more paranoid of making an ass out of myself than my conscious one.

    Things have been pretty boring around here lately. I'm still job hunting and not ready to panic yet. I have a networking thing to go to next Thursday and I'll have new business cards to take with me. I'm stoked as I've never had business cards before. Whenever people used to ask me I'd just sigh and say sincerely, "You know, I'm all out but I have some on order." Why I would do this I have no idea. Insecurity combined with procrastination, I'm sure.

    T. is busy freelancing for his old paper as well as a new gig in town. I'm jealous. We're also we're driving each other slightly insane by both being in the apartment. T. needs the phone to make interviews and to keep in touch with the papers he's freelancing for and I need to phone line to get online and job hunt, send out resumes and work on the Webgrrls L.A. site overhaul. I've been trying to do as much as possible offline so that he can use the phone but it seems whenever I get started doing busy work he wants to use the computer. So, either we need a second line or I need to get out of this apartment. We really can't afford a second line right now and I'd much rather get out of the apartment.

    It seems my biggest stumbling block to coorporate employee fulfillment is not knowing Director. Director is a very robust piece of software from Macromedia that is used primarily for creating CD-Roms and other interactive presentations. I'd love to learn it but I haven't had access to it. I think the software is around the thousand dollar mark so it's not something I can buy just to play with. The ever-clever Tracing has suggested just getting a tutorial book and learning alot about it that way. Not a bad idea but I think I'm going to go looking for a class somewhere. Of course, if I could get an employer to take me on as a fledgling web designer then I could learn Director from their senior designers and pretty soon I'm sure to become Überdesigner, loved by all.